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Monday, August 31, 2009, 1:31 AMviolet uk (yoshiki of x japan feat. daughter) - unnamed song please give up the video, it sucks, listen the song stay with meSunday, August 30, 2009, 4:01 AMi wonder if these thoughts will reach you? just the sight of you appearing through this small window makes me happy that day long ago, the tears I had carried I quietly left them behind as I wished for a dream Stay with me you are my one precious ray of light Stay with me I want to be connected hand in hand with you forever and ever and continue towards tomorrow, walking along that road with you in the chest of time, my wings were trapped you let me ride on the wind descending suddenly upon the evening street you gave me the courage to start singing for you, I'll try hard and won't give up easily this sparking heart Stay with me your willingness to listen to my sorrow Stay with me together with you, forever and ever I want to gaze at that which the moon, the sun and the two of us can do Stay with me you are surely, positively are another me Stay with me I want to be connected hand in hand with you forever and ever and continue towards tomorrow, walking along that road with you Thursday, August 27, 2009, 2:43 AMi wil ltake on more challenges. it's not going to be easy when thingsa come throwing. but i will pull it through. have faith in me Tuesday, August 25, 2009, 4:13 PMbut i really loved. 你快把幸福找回来。。 。 you won't need me anymore this time. ------------- i felt the worst today. never will i think i will release everything this way.. how good it could have bee if you hadn't met me...you could have been laughing with her now.. now..i took away your smiles...when i promised to take away your tears.. now..i destroyed something precious to you..when i promised that it won't happen under my care. --------------- i shouldn't be here. yes, all these was a lie, i lied, i joked. i lied that i loved you, i joked about the promises made. i laughed at alll the moments we had. im a mistake, a terrible mistake you have made. sorry angel, i destroyed you. Labels: without you.... Tuesday, August 18, 2009, 12:51 PMand that I can never fulfil your basic needs. I'm sorry that I'm always a piece of shit. Sorry that i care too much, concern too much. I'm sorry that you matters to me so much. im sorry. but thank you, cause your existence flatters me :) Monday, August 17, 2009, 11:35 PMthinking, probing, questioning and all :) things will go well Saturday, August 15, 2009, 11:21 PMThursday, August 13, 2009, 11:55 PMtime and time again i have been reminded by people that I have been different. And right, i feel like a piece of shit, as told by many others also. Were has that Jianyang who always held his pride so high that nobody can ever touch it? well, not to say there is nothing good about this new jianyang, this new jianyang is so much more committed to last time, ranging from personal repsonsibilities all the way to love. So fuck this fucking process. Tomorrow, Jianyang would be spirited, Determined, full of life, and yet still committed and filled with responsibilities. He is going back into his prime AND HE MEAN IT! I HAVE GOT NOTHING TO LOSE! (except her) , 1:01 AM不再别人眼光旁望而迷路。。。 我可能会把爱看得不清楚。。 也不会想把你的手牢牢握住 如果，这是通往爱的路途。。。 也许过程要注定不会一帆风顺， 但我不后悔， 选择， 这条路。。。 应为这让我， 深深体会 。。。幸福和活着的感触 Labels: i'm not taking it for granted. , 12:43 AMShouted and screamed at by manager and customer. cranky. crazy. not in the mood. tired. and lastly, distracted. at the age of 18, i feel like i have rewinded myself back to pri.1 Where all the shits happens.. then i imagined a conversation between myself, and me. "hey, why are we rewinding jy?" "i don't know, jy." "we need to stop rewinding back to how we were when we suffer the most for 6 years" "okay, i will press the play button." "wait, the play button?" "yes." "but right now, we are way back to that stage, we need to get back!" "okay, let me find the forward button." "but ..where is it?" "but ..where is it?" ------ what is my view on quarrels and rocky times when people are in love.. i say it's good. cause it shows you the truth, cause it shows how strong they are as people COMMITING in a relationship, take for a very good example.. bumper cars.. when two bumpers cars clashes, it's just like two people clashing in as relationship, abrupt, sudden and maybe expriencing pain, but the pulls each apart...but does it mean it's a bad thing? let's see it in another way... after clashing you will be pulled apart forcefully, but what ave you gained? An understanding. An analysis. A statistic. why all these?let's say there's only two people in this bumper cars field, If you are the driver of each bumper car, after the first clash, you will know how the person is like, before you bump again, in a totally new angle or ways. think at it in a relationship.. you are understanding your partner more, and this time, you will see problems from another angle, and be able to understanding each other more again! but...for most, it's a moment of seperation and depression. Cause there's a gap, so close, yet so far, people are numb and too shocked from that abrupt bump from each other... so what is love again? there is it's up and down, but whether or not, two party are willing to take the down with stride and persevere through, thing's will be good. And a stronger bond will be forged, like how a sword is made from strong heats and non-stop clashing and hammering from the hammer, and lastly cooling it down, to form a blade so sharp that it cuts any obstacle that come's it way. --------- it's not meant as a bad thing nor a god thing it's something from within...and i didn't said it like how you mentioned it.. what i said was, promises made from me, seems to go another way around, cause you are the one fulfiling it. I feel useless. haha. and what is that missing feeling? i felt a gap. Which i don't know why? is it coming from me trying too hard to acede to what we have promised each other? Or is it coming from another source? but don't worry, things will be positive. Cause i feel like now, we are in the furnace, being hammered down for the first time. Tuesday, August 11, 2009, 8:50 PMlack of sleep. cranky. abit wrong in the head. but worse of all... i have never felt this sting of sadness for so long. Monday, August 10, 2009, 3:52 PMwhat happens to the other meat source? cow, pigs, duck, chicken, maybe cats.. so why just pity the dogs? i think i wan to go vegetarian! , 12:02 AM:) long long time agoSunday, August 09, 2009, 2:32 AMbut not very long ago..i told alson this.. "I am an unlucky person because i have wished to know her and fall in love with her in exchange of half my luck. And I have used it up" haha so cliche. :) Labels: imy. Mature.Sunday, August 02, 2009, 11:06 PMHow mature are you? After going through life for 18 years and more in my life, i came to know there are many different stages of maturity that I exprienced through myself. If i were to go in deep since toddler, people would question the credibility, so let's start at teenage! The very first step to maturity. well people, childish. Childish is known as - –adjective 1. of, like, or befitting a child: childish games. 2. puerile; weak; silly: childish fears. http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/childish well, that's is defined by the dictionary. People especially those at the age of 13 - 15 label actions like, going crazy at a party, playing games at camps and literally playing as childish. And they engage at activities like, giving "advices", "reflecting" their thoughts on life, thinking how "miserable" their life is, as mature. I say fuck you. By not playing, going crazy, engage in fun activities at the age of 13 - 15 is considered childish or making yourself deprived of enjoyment, at least for me. Why? Don't bullshit with me, how miserable can you get when you can blog? receive education? Have friends? have at least a steady? Lose your first kiss etc? How much advices can you give when you have yet to exprience anything else in life other than thinking you are very miserable in life, you practically made another person as miserable as you think you are. Please act your age and nothing more! No one is forcing you to grow up so soon, besides, by thinking so 'maturely' at the age of 13 surely, it doesn't allow you to do things legally at the age of 18 or 21 right? ------ next step! :D at around the age of 16 - 17 people have exprienced somethings, love lifes...work expriences...friends falling in and out..probably some small knowledge of handling family problems.. but at this age, people hit this level of maturity, which is engaged at majorly. Offering advices, based on your expriences. I personally done that..alot of times. haha. Well, at this stage of maturity, you tend to want people to live for the better, not see them rot. Hence you start to have this mature stage of thinking, "I want to let them feel ..... (wadever words that can make them feel better than what they are feeling now)" I personally haven't seen much of the defects in this stage compare to the previous one, cause i personally like this stage alot...so hmm well probably share it again once i know about it's defects. -------- My stage of maturity now. Well, at some points of life, you would care-less. I remember seeing her put this, "No communication doesn't mean I don't care, it meant that i care too much" Similarly! Caring less doesn't mean I don't care, but rather, if learning by going through the processes in your life could benefit you at large, why not? People may shrug it off at being cold, ruthless, heartless, no compassion. But don't just look things at the surface, people still offer advices to the one in trouble when they need it, but they know, words are just so much they can do. How long can your friend in trouble depend on you? let me post you this question : A hungry man is by the river, would you give him a fish that is readily cook for him, or will you teach him how to cook and fish? should i say anymore? :) what level are you now people ? :D Cravings., 11:01 PMI want to complete my pokemon game.. I want to complete my sims 3.. I want to have a meet up with my buddiessss.. ------ I want to eat all my thailand food! As well as western food! How about japanese food! maybe look at some pretty girls and envy those good loking guys and probaby disturb my friends at school ------ But ultimately... i want to.. go out with her do those things that i promised her! eg, kite spend times with her alot alot alot. when can i finsih all those cravings? hmm. |