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10 pieces of memoriesSunday, February 08, 2009, 4:14 AM1.The first time i see my father. I guess the first time i see my father was when i was 3 years old, maybe i've seen him when i was younger, but my memory don't serve justice. Well, i always remembered that he will always bring me down to the video shop last time to buy those Ultraman, power rangers, masked rider tapes*yea tapes, last time no vcd*, when i was still living in..lorong ahsu. I think that kinda explain why i am so sticked onto these kind of show even till now, it holds a special place in my heart. 2. My start out of my interest for drawing well, my first start out of my interest for drawing, started out when i was 5 or so i think. Again because of my dad, my mom was always busy with her work, and whenever my dad came back from his sailor work i would be shy, until one of the days which i suddenly wanted to draw a pig. Yeah a pig. haha! So i got no idea how to start drawing and i asked my dad. The pig which he drew, to me at the time was real as hell, and i started the obsession, not to mention, when my cousin was put up at my place to live for wadever reason, she was a great drawer too! Hence and ever stronger urge to learn how to draw. I even attended drawing lessons during my kindergarten time, those were also the time where my grandma would keep scolding me because i can never finished coloring or drawing those things, but meh when i was looking at my piece of work, everything just went mute. 3. My primary school days sucks. I still remember when i was in pri.1 i was slapped for no reason by a teacher. I was pinched and scolded by my form teacher, for what reason? I don't know. It just seems that the teacher wanted to abuse me. And then my cousins would always complain to the teacher, and she started to treat me like a prince, which seem to be ridiculous, and i am still angry over it until now, why is she treating me like a piece of shit? Then come pri.3 where it is my rebellious period, i joined a sort of 'gang' in my class where there is this thing call chinese one gang, tamil one gang. HAHA! And i can still remember the indian classmate who joined forces with the chinese gang and say he is a spy for the chinese gang! LOL! and we always have racial riots in class, but then in the end the tamil gang leader shook hand with me and that's it. I also joined the chinese orchestra, those were the days where i start to have a little tiny weeny bit of confidence built into me. Cause i was made to perform in front of audiences and schools every year, alot of 'kick' cause that time i was playing yang qin before i am the drummer. And i can't play string instrument for goodness sake, i always pretend tt i am playing the instrument HAHA! yea..i am slow and stupid. Then come pri.4-6, another sucky period, i guess i was really emotional that period of time, everything just seems to go against me, scoldings, beatings, bullying, real friends, fake friends, whatever bad you can think of. I guess this is the period where until now i've been adapting this attitude where whenever i received a scolding or beating it hurts, both in and out. You can say i have a very weak emotional state of mind, i not really joking about this one. And because of this my brain adopted another kind of personality into me, a really bad one, i guess you can say it's my evil self. I will build a barrier of protection around me, and will always simulate some kind of 'plans' that would totally corrupt people lives, which i did...and not guilty about it. 4. discovery of my family secrets well like i say, it's a family secret, so many complicated things, i don't think i should be discussing it here, too private and confidential. But how great if those memories are happy ones. 5. Secondary school life I think by far this is one of my greatest period, ever since the fucking downhill life i had in my primary school i think my secondary school life wasn't that bad. I made alot of friends and that's where i start to bloom in my brain, not very acedemically, but rather, more in moral values and personality. I start to socialise, unlike in Pri.sch which i am always alone. I start to joke around, unlike in Pri.sch i will just sulk my whole life away. and yeah, that's what the 180 degrees turn in me. I am no longer fat (haha!) I was in the Student leader, student council which contributes to my great period of life. Even until now i can remember all my classmates name! But i wonder how many actually remember who i am? People change i guess. 6. My friends well, like i say in my secondary school life, it is really a period where i really exprience what is call life, the luxury of not feeling any pain. One of those are my friends. Which includes my classmates, people such as Shikin, Jacklyn, Boonyit, Crystal, Yvonne, Zahid, Asidah, Weineng etc. Everyone of them have very distinct personality, like being random, having no eyebrow, close the eye and porn is already playing, and very direct and outspoken, and a little gay? LOL i don't know, just what come to me as i see it. And next group of friends, my brothers, well i remember we started out at sec3 , which we originated from the 11 angels ? 9 angels? can't remember the amount, sorry! LOL! but because of some issues, we broke up and then the guys formed the brothers... and til now we have...Nigel, Junhao, Junjie, Yongkuang, Shaun, Fernanders, Me, Chienyie, Lionel and louis. We exprienced quite alot i guess? From Yongkuang MIA-ing for about 8 months because of cheryl, From starting out as strangers, and til now where i guess we are not as strong as before, but meh, we are still hanging out eventhough everyone has went their own ways. 7. tokuAsia this is where i met my MSN PALS. We chat almost everyday together! And the family just keep on growing and growing...last time we only had Bas, MY, Jac, Gareth and Weijie, then it just keep adding on til we have the mentioned + Nelson, Alvin, Liwen, Yat. * i miss anyone out? We been through alot too, the Van incident, our filming projects, fanfiction projects, outings, i dare to say that my bond with them is rock solid. We aren't people who have met for 5 years and chatting til now for nothing. 8. My first online game and my first motor and car ride Well my first online game is Ragnarok online, fascinated by the artworks and the incredible graphics! I remember i was pri.6 and was using a lousy Window millienium Packard bell pc. It LAG LIKE HELL. LOL! So the game postponed til sec1 where i changed my PC to what i am using now, yup, it's that long. Well Ragnarok, the game which i first spent hours with, then discover the thing called bot to help me train while i study at my room alone, you know when you started school and don't want to lose to everyone in the class thing LOL! and I kinda got 10/40 in class hahaha! First time ever, i'm so proud of myself. Okay anyway, Ragnarok also open my eyes to the world of deceiving and truth, i was hoaxed for 3 years before i realised it, incredible? I think so too. Hence the even stronger emotional barrier. Till now i am still playing that game once in a while, though it no longer the official server, too expensive, and pointless so i played the private server. My first motor ride was when i was 15, hahaha! It was at Thailand and i actually sped! WOO! the feeling is intense, the chill and fear of crashing like when i first learn how to ride a bicycle. And it actually keep my dreams of having my own bike and travel around the world with it even more true, now i am just awaiting enough saving and start to go for lessons :) My first car ride, was after O lvls. I learned how easy a car is to drive, sadly i don't really get to drive it, i get to learn how to accelerate, reverse. But it's a step forward of seeing myself in an JEEP or SUV driving around the world too! Well, it's my dream to travel along the road of the world with Motor or JEEP/SUV. Just how cool is that :D But that would have to wait till i've got the capital, and i will work hard towards that goal. 9. My mom and grandma Why my mom? Well she is from thailand, making me a half thai and she is weird. She like to say that i am stupid and slow, she like to say that i sucks at drawing, she like to make MY matter into her own stride and she is totally the opposite of me. I remember when i was young, she will land her punches on me without holding back, just because of one small little thing i did. She is the one who drove me to take a knife and threaten to take my own life away when i was pri.3 intense? Try going through what i had. People says the only child in the family is treated like a king, i say fuck u. Cause i'm not. Or maybe i am the only one. Well my mom is guillible, which might be the cause of her abuse. When her friends say that their child is doing better than me acedemically, i would get a beating or scolding, strange but when it comes to secondary school, all truth came out, I AM THE ONE WHO IS SMARTER. fuck? Yea. My mom also never accepts what i do, when she say we go shopping to buy clothes, she is the one who buy it for me, when she ask me to choose, it like's saying "you choose, and i say it sucks put it back and i get what i call nice for u". Yes this is her. I will never ever forget that she say this to me, YOU DRAW LIKE A PRI.1 KID AND YOU WANT TO BE A DESIGNER? DON'T DISGUST ME. YOUR STUPID AND DUMB, YOU ARE NOT FIT TO BE A DESIGNER see? i'm not exerggerating, i swear i put all my intergrity into this line, it's so sad, it's so frustrating that i decided not to share my life with her verbally, i shut myself to her. sad? I think it's just right. My dad say she love me so much, but where is it? She only accepts that i wanted to be a designer after 6 months of arguement and seeing that HER FAVOURITE NEPHEW IS A DESIGNER AS WELL. HOW GREAT ? In fact i don't even feel a single bit of concern from my parents. I still vividly remember when i was in sec1 i was hooked onto Ragnarok and so never went out of the house for about 7 months, and she told me to go out, so i did. And the next moment, she told me not to go out cause it's too much. HA! and now she ask me to get a job, i got a job and immediately she told me to quit, is all mom like that? I doubt so. And my dad would just stand blindly on her side, and i am the one who carry all the shit, i got tough life ain't i? People says, everyone say that their own life is miserable, but mine comes with a concrete evidence. My grandmother. She is great. Period. I was young she took care of me, i abused her by throwing her chores, now that i'm older i am trying to repay back, but i still feel fucked. Cause this spur out onto me when she nearly... when she had an illness on my hands, it's so shocking that i cried like no tomorrow, my first cry after 8 years. 10. Bongo Burger My first real part time job. Well not so much yet, but i am planning to work hard and long. The people there are nice, and i did alot of thing i never once did before in life, and i guess never would if i didn't work there. Although i know i am clumsy and slow and not very smart, i am trying my best. So actually, today i got a scolding from yunos, a very nice guy, good leader. Which actually send me into deep thoughts, just how can i accelerate myself?! Well, i've got another week in kitchen as a fryer, hopefully i am better.... and maybe i will have another same article 10 years down the road... |