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Tuesday, December 04, 2007, 9:39 PM-------- dear bryan. today, i went to your house to look at you for the last time. As i stepped into your house and i peek at you in the room, you look as thou you are sleeping there so peacefully, seemingly still breathing, but it was all my imagination. As i stepped out of the house,the other nephews and niece was having fun, too young to know how to sense that sadness and all they know is you are going to a far away land. As i looked at them having fun, i remembered how you wanted to join them in the chalet just about 5 days ago.However your frail body couldn't allow you to do so. So now since your free of this 'bag of burden' are you having fun with them without them noticing your presence? i wonder. As i wonder on reminding myself the past where i would show you those shows that you like on my computer such as power rangers, ultraman just so to entertain you due to your immobillity, i remember how you call me "ah yang shu shu" when your all healthy and not being diagnosed with such terrible illness. And as the buddhist chant the sutra to let you go in peace i saw your dad, frowning, wants to cry but can't due to some superstitious belief, all he wanted was you to be okay, i guess for now it is a wish come true, but in a painful alternative way. dear bryan, your death date was just 2 days away from my 4th aunt, your 4 lao yi. ma she guide you along this unfarmiliar land, and if fate chances by, let me see a face farmiliar to you as long as i live. r.i.p.dear nephew. your will to live is strong, you encouraged the doctor even though the doctor knew you can't be saved by saying "you are a very good doctor, you made me feel no pain" , you showed concern and tried to please your dad by saying "i want to live daddy." you live well my dear nephew, you suffered enough already so now sleep eternally. ------ personal response. the world is a very realistic place, a living hell. disease strikes at everyone and at any age, already within one short year, 2 of my dearest has gone away with the god. well, now the phrase " cherish your dearest." has really shown its meaning. as i look at my cousin holding back his tears it sadden me like hell. He loved him from how i see that he even shielded him away from the loud crack of thunder by hugging him. He wanted him to study, already registered a place for him at a primary school however reality is still there, bryan was already deprived of education but in return, isn't it a good thing that he need not witness this world full of ugliness and yet beauty. And to say being born in Singapore seems more like a misfortune, people stares give ruthless comments. sigh. well i got nothing else to add, on thursday i gotta pay respect to my late 4th aunt as well. well guys cya. cherish your family |